Report 136: On the island.

(picture not mine, I googled it. Confederation Bridge)

We've been living on the island for more then six months now, and I finally place paintings up on the wall! Well two. ANd I laugh since the two I placed first are made by my best friend that she give me when she moved out of the apartment few years ago. I also cleaned up my office, I changed a few things around so now I can actually close the door of my wardrobe.

I've been writing lately, but not on what I should be actually working on, oups. I wrote the full outline for the second book of my Ghost Trackers series. Then I worked a bit on the first novel, but I should do more then that. I just been...focused on something else, mostly homework since mid term have passed and now I need to study for exam that will be coming quicker then I though.

I did apply for some jobs on the island, since me and scott talked and we agreed that we want to stay for another year. We love our apartment and the island, we don't want to move out. Yes it would be easier on us if we would stay in New Brunswick, but it is our decision and we love living here.

Scott is working his way to try and get an assistant manager job where he is working. NO one really believes him when he asked because he only been working for them for a couple of months, but he is dedicated and works hard.  I'm also going to have an interview ( via SKYPE! :D) next week. Totally sure it was today but then I check the email again and it was March 7 so I was like: Daannmm.

Nothing much happen in the month, except for the "reading week" which is their version of March break. I had plan to read all my books but instead I just...tumblr all day and clean the apartment. Fun times. Okay yes I got skype finally when I was talking with my best friend where I missed the sowing machine loud noise. She said "why not?" and it made me download skype but I didn't even call her yet, I got a call from my mom and now they are calling at least once a week or every two weeks or so.

its awkward, because I have no idea what I can talk to them. I just find it funny because every time they call scott is working at nights so they miss him. And I mean, there is so much I can talk about two classes. I could talk about my progress in my writing but the only thing that interest them is if my grammar is perfect, not the story ( which is depressing, so I keep it to myself).

For valentines day, Scott changed the plan at the last minute, we had previously planned that I would have cooked him a dinner at home while he worked until 5, but then he wanted to go out. And I was like, your kidding me! Its Valentines Day! so yeah, we got no place at all, even if I tried to call in advance for reservation, but not only was it Valentines day, but it was Kids eat free day ish. NO PLACE AT ALL. We ate at McDonalds. I got books, I let him get a DLC for Skyrim.

I FINALLY GOT A BOOK BY JOHN GREEN! I got Paper Town. I still didn't read it since I'm half way into Cinder like a week ago. And I still have a bunch of books I want to read that are all placed accordingly on my desk.Its quite pretty.

Anyway I have to go, one assignment needs to be written and a outlines has to be planned.

Take care,

Steph~

Report 135: New Years! And 2012-2013 goals reflection!

There is this theory, in NaNoLand, that the more busy you are the more achievement you make. In 2012 I had a few writing goals, and I can say I achieve a lot of them. THough I am ashamed of myself since I only work on the one that is consider easy. I work hard on my revision, that is true. But I could do a lot more. I could work a lot more on it. Ever since I started University I have been very busy, and the writing kind off took a stop.

This year, I am still not sure or have a good...idea structure I guess. I have three class this semester and they are taking most of my time. But I want to edit and post some of my stories I wrote for NaNoWriMo 2012, and to go back on my novel revision. I will have to reread basically everything to go back to the stage I left, but it be fine. I actually had a dream that make a better ending then the one I originally had. And I probably will try to make a few more scenes. Since I know that my Ghost story is about Daniel discovering he is Half ghost in the private institute for Ghost Trackers. However, I don't really know how to proceed with the school part of it. Or even how to make the evil bad guy a bad guy. ( except you know the part where Gregory( bad guy) is actually sucking the souls of everyone.)

It still could do a lot more work for me to be able to write it properly since I kind off just jump in it with out a good grasp of the back story. And the back story is actually important. Some what. To make sense of everything else anyway. There is also the problem of, because I am taking so much long brakes between revision I have a more longer time to brainstorm and change my mind. Which both sucks, and amaze me. Since I came up with much better idea everything, but sucks since it basically change the whole story all over again. I'm sticking with the original story I wrote in pen fro the first time. Since it is the story I originate and liked, and using my other brilliant idea for sequel of some sort. Because hell if Ghost exist in these world, there is bound to be more magical creature in existence am I right? Right.

In other note, my boyfriend is going to apply for the work force ( as a cook) and we are thinking of moving again, meaning that my studies will be either on hold or transferred again. Its just...complicated. I wanted, when I apply to UPEI, to get a degree in English like that I be a better writer. I took some Psychology classes and I just had the misfortune to tell my family that I really enjoy Psychology and now, well, everyone is on my back about time, and deciding what I really really want to do with my life and about money,loan and a bunch of crap. MY main goal when I apply was to get better in English. Yes I enjoy Psychology immensely, but it is not for me. One, I can't even read about the nano transmitter and drugs effect with out having a small panic attack, less studying it for the rest of my life. I don't think they understand the concept of emetophobia.

But anyway, my point is, if we do move back in New Brunswick, I don't know if I should continue my study in English language, or go to the workforce and work on my novel. Since I did get better in english amazingly, but I still have a lot of work to do. A Lot.

OMG did you know that my Microsoft word document always automatically change my 'a lot' to 'alot'! It drives me crazy!

Anyway, (/cough cough) I still have time to brainstorm. I will talk about it with scott and see his opinion.

Except for that, my holiday was good! We surprised my mother from coming home earlier then planned ( much earlier) it was fun, made her day. I had a lot of great gift! Teen wolf season 1 in the shelf and a giant owl pillow :D I also received a lot of books and a gift certificate for Chapters ( that I used the next day for Cecelia Ahern recent books I was missing YES). I hope everyone had a great Holiday and New Year! I will be changing my goals page soon and also talk about my classes! My English Linguistic teach is AMAZING! People probably think she is on the side of crazy but I love her, oh my god.

Take care!

Steph :D

Report 131: first day at University

Hey I'm alive! :D

I just didn't post much since there is absolutely nothing new that happen the last few weeks. But now there is!

I started my classes at the University! Today was the first day, I got my books ( 300$!! Jesus), and meet the teachers. Yesterday I ordered my Macbook through Staples, by the time they will receive it I will receive my loan so its awesome.

3 years ago, I started this blog, to vent and remember my assignment in college, it sort off merge into a blog about my opinion and track of what I want to do in life. Well now its back to keep track and vent about my classes.

I only have two class each semesters: English 101, and Psychology 101

The English class is small, 25 student in it, it was cozy, the teacher told us what we should expect during this semester and its a lot of writing, which I totally happy about!  The Psychology class....we were 209 people in it. It was amazing, and the teacher was amazing, I can't wait to get into that class, its just..blow my mind out I love and am interest to listen and understand all the part of the human brain.

I also been revising my novel lately, Its going slowly, but I am really impress by the work and how much more interesting it is now. I was surprised on how the red pen everywhere didn't make me have a panic attack like usual but more like " FUCK YEAH I'M A WRITER" feeling XD

everything is kind of pilling up in my life, revising, classes, and work. Well work is still giving me 20plus hours, if its still like that next week I have to ask for less hours unfortunately since I need to study, and work on assignments. I'm not even sure if I be able to do NaNoWriMo this year D: I have like a huge research paper due in the end of November, well in the whole November we work on that so, with my  nonexistence of ability doing research papers, I want to focus on that, but if I can make it as a fiction story, fuck yes I'm doing nano.

all in all, the class look promising, I'm very interest in the Psychology class, its like, everything I was interested to know about and the Writing class I will FINALY have good feed back on my writing. Instead of pity looks and blame on my lack of understanding the grammars structure in English. Well, if you would tell me why its wrong and how to fix it for future reference I would probably stop.Maybe not. But at least I would know and keep it in my laundry list! ( Laundry list is a list of things when working on a novel to keep track off like that it keeps the story consistence .)

Anyway, yeah, I can't wait to see how it goes. I will have to limit my internet use now ( damn you tumblr, stealing all my time and life) but I will try and summit a few reports on how things going.

take care! :D

Steph~

Report 128: Land of Stories

Report 128: Land of Stories

News:

I went to chapter on the 17 and got the Land of Stories by Chris Colfer ( I check only 3 days later and I'm still the only one who bought it. Sad).  There was a lot of special and was lucky enough and didn't buy like...everything. I  was holding myself back, cause really I don't even have place to put the books I bought. I got Artemis Fowl: the Atlantis Complex by Eoin Colfer (5$!!) and a huge fairy tale book ( 10$). More books to place on my reading list. But I made a promise to my boyfriend and myself really, that I will read Games of Throne in one go, and when I will finish it we can watch the TV show base on the book. Scott love the TV show and wants me to watch it with him, so It will make him happy.

except for that I played Minecraft with a add on that I can capture pokemon and they help me battle monsters, its totally fun. I wrote and prepare for the 7 portal project, I got a bit more to write before I start scanning and get the first step ready for posting. I have like close to 20 pages already. I have to explain how I work, and how everyone will be different in the just gathering information stage.

Ho that remind me, talking about my story, Scott is a 3D modeler, a environmental 3D modeler, so I convince him ( and if he wants), to use my world, the world the story will be in, as practice for his portfolio, so I will have really 3D Image for my world :D I give him The White forest first, since its the one I have most detailed.

That's all for the news!

Progress:

I actually did a lot more progress this week. I have written at least 3/4 of the story. But you can see for the start that I was trying to keep the story from when I was a kid, but the  more I moved forward in the story the more the character aged, the more the danger became more... terrifying. There is still some elements of when I saw the story when I was a kid. It just evolve to make more sense. I only  have trouble with the villain. He is just...never there. But I keep in mine that the character is always risking your life with flesh eating mermaids, giant frost monsters, ear piercing screeching wolf, and others.

Books:

Land of Stories by Chris Colfer. I read it in 2 days. I'm actually surprised it last that long. I'm actually surprised that I read it at all!When I got it on the day of its release ( yesterday 17 of July) It was like a dream. I could really believe it. Even before I got to bed I had it in my hand and I just... It felt like a dream, like any minute now I would wake up and I would still be in college living with my best friend, instead of being here, waiting for University to start, with Chris fucking Colfer book in my hand.

Chris Colfer is one of my biggest inspiration, my roll model and idol. He is a great men, sweet with full of passion for what he do and love. Which just happen that what he do is what he love the most. I bought the book to support him, I read the book because I'm geniousely curious of his writing, and I enjoyed every single second of it.

for the right start I could feel the characters pain, their emotion. Every little secret that he reviel to the character and us, made me want to read more, to never let go ( which you know I did, If it where for me I would have finish it yesterday but I had to go to bed in normal hours since I work today), the question poping in my head and I just wanted to know the truth, why. Who is he, what are they, how its going to fold out.

And its not until I finish the book that all the question got answers. and it surprised me soo much, it wasn't what I expected at all, and I love that. He was able to hide the truth from us until the very end. He was able to grab us with his word and witty characters until the very beginning.

I can usually know how a story will end because thing start to became predictable, but Chris Colfer surprised me, it made me cry in emotion ( making my boyfriend looking at me weirdly). I enjoy the book, and would recommended to anyone. Its a very well made book.

What book, you where so sure you knew the answers, but got so surprised at the end?

Report 127 International Blogging

Report 127: International Blogging

News:

 I start taking the class by Jeff Goins called International Blogging, basically it's a 12 week course to help build a blog and get lots of traffic. (If interest for the free class click here , yes it is 100% FREE)

I'm only only at the second lesson right now and he ask me ( us) to brainstorm a subject, something we are passionate about, something we can do for hours end and never get bored or sick of it. When I read that, the first thing that pop out in my mind was Imagination. Not writing like I though it would be the right answer, but the source off all writing, Imagining the story in place first. I love just lying down and see a epic journey behind my eyelid. I love daydreaming ( huge source of nearly failing school, oupss), I love trying to remember in detail my dreams to write it down. I love to watch movies for the their story, or just engross in a novel for the journey.

For hours on end I love to do nothing but imagine stories.

Now He ask us question trying to find the focus on what we want to bring to our blog, what we want our blog to be really. But I got a blank, I don't really understand how I get to one part to the other. How can I divided Imagination in sub group? I love doing it, but writing about it? How can you write a process on Imagination? really.

I used this blog for 3 years now as a source for me to lay down my though and find what I want to do in my life. But I still don't know. Or well I'm not sure. If it was up to me I would be a house wife. But I don't like doing chores much.I like writing, I really do, but to be honest, It been months I didn't touch my revision and I didn't even start the 7 portal project. Its in my mind and I feel guilty every time I put it aside to do something else, it's like... I feel like its not my priority at all. I tried to work on my laptop, I usually do a lot of work on my laptop, but its dying, it took just like 10 minute to open the word document, and every time I was writing 3 to 5 words it would freeze up and I kept getting panic attacks wondering if I would be losing my work or if it was going to crash. So I stop working on my laptop, trying to think of a way to fix it, but its in the back of my head for now, my focus is trying to find what motivate me to write, to stop dreaming about doing it, and actually doing it.

Wow that sounds a lot like lesson 1 of How to Think Sideways. I should dig this up, may help me.

Its really frustrating because I really, really want to work but I freeze up every time my hand are near the keyboard( Took me 3 days to write THIS report!).

The Four THINKING Barriers ( all right to Holly Lisle)

SAFE never starts,

PERFECT never finishes,

VICTIM never acts,

FEEL never thinks.

And here is my problem, safe and victim ( thank you Holly). I'm going to read through the lesson tonight and get my shit together like that tomorrow I will be able to work on my projects.

/crack neck and roll shoulders/ Lets do this.

Wish me luck!

Progress:

I got the idea for the 7 portals story, I just have to get my shit together and work on it. I was able to devided and figure out my process on how I bring a idea to full fruition then write it. I was able to make it in small 7 steps ( small HA).

Books:

I visit the Chapters in the town I live now ( HO GOD THEY HAVE A CHAPTERRRS sooo happpy) and was able to find The element of style by William Strunk jr, and E.B. White. I'm taking my time to read and understand the process of writing. Its a great little book, I am really happy that I bought it. It was recommended to me many time but I just didn't want to buy it online, I though that if I find it someday I would take it. And I am happy about my decision. Would it have help me earlier? Perhaps. But probably not, its only now that I am in the mind set of really wanting to understand and learn. If I would have got it earlier it probably be lost in my book shelves and I wouldn't be thinking of it now.

I am taking notes of it, in a little green book that I bought. Its purse size so I'm caring it with me at all time. I'm learning slowly,more like, I'm understanding. I only have it for a few days and I'm not very far through it but thats okay because I want to understand, I dont want to skim it and try to remember later.

Would I recommended? Yes, total yes.

If you see it in the reference section, take it, its worth the 10 buck.

What book did, surprisingly, help you? What subject?

for me:

Writing:

• The Element of Style by William Strunk jr and E/B White.
• How to Revise your Novel by Holly Lisle ( all courses now sold on Amazon)
• No plot? No problem! by Chris Baty

Anxiety attacks:

• The Secret to Teen Power by Paul Harrington (better explication)
• Happiness project by Gretchen Rubin
• Little ways to KEEP CALM and CARRY ON by Mark A. Reinecke, PH.D.

A-to-Z Blog Challenge - Zed/ Zerox

And its the final day...man Its been a great challenge. I meet a lot of new people and learn a lot. It was a adventure that turn in a different way then I expected and really enjoy it, I really want to do this again that's for sure.

For the last day of the challenge, I have Zed, this is how I pronounce the letter Z. It's being made fun a lot because its what a Canadian thing? But I'm proud of my odd pronounce.

I do argue about that over the Telly when people say Zee I'm like "NUUUUU ITs Zed Zed!! Get ittt?!" Scott just look at me with a WTF expression and just shake his head.

The other thing I want to talk about is my Character Zerox ( pronounce like Xerox by mistake, I knew it sounded familiar until my best friend laugh her ass off and say "Like the paper company?" and I was like oh shit! But no, its just supposed to be Zero ( cause he is a super looser in the popularity chart of high schoolers) and just add the X at the end.

Xerox have flaming red hair and dress like a punk, though he have a very weak immune system so when he catch a cold he has to be stabilize at the hospital to make sure his heart doesn't fail.

His parents are rich bastard that didn't really plan to have him so they just give him everything to make him shut the hell up.But they are not heartless enough and make sure he stay alive and is careful during rainy days.

He is gay of cause and in love with another guy who treat him like shit ( My mom use to say if a by pick on you often it mean he love yeah? It sucks and you just want to kill the guy to leave you alone? Yeah that kind of shit.)

But in my story I have that, Zerox was assigned to a ghost to bring his shit up, because he was considering suicide. The girl was able to give him purpose and love to his life, but it ends up he became sick outside ( got in a argument with his parents, didn't plan that it was going to rain) in the rain, his cellphone die and cant contact anyone. I made that the ghost, who can't leave his side try to contact Xehart ( The jerk that Zerox love) and made him just have ideas that hey he wants to go see his now new friend Zerox and find him in time in the rain to bring to the hospital and make a huge scene of confessing their love ( And Xehart yelling at his duchy parents)

ALLL that in the futurictic world. Yeah, I have a huge imagination, and it wasn't a dream! HO okay it was a daydream. I just created Zerox for the hell of it and the rest of his story came up. And I like ghost so I had to add a reason to place a ghost in the story, just had too.

Also I dont edit, at all so all mistake are my own.

Take care :D

Steph~

A-to-Z Blog Challenge - Witch

I love magic okay like, really do. There is thing that we cant understand why it happens that way in the world.

Like...Okay I'm going to tell a story. My oldest sister, since she was a kid she was allergic to food colorant. SO she was really limited to what she was able to eat, but as she grew older it would only get wurst to wurst so much that she was getting allergic to the country air. NO its true, when she left to go to the university, her body go so used to the air in the city that during the summer, when she moved back in her throat just slowed up for no reason! Then she got a burn out from working three job in the same time and had to take a year long break because the depression fell in when you know your ALLERGIC TO FLIPPING EVERYTHING even the medicine.

They went to EVERYTHING masseuses, Acupuncture and other things. My mom was desperate, she was taking care of my oldest sister who was so burn out couldn't be left alone in the house and sleep t3/4 of the day.

I don't know how my mom got to know that women, but with the line of work she did, It didn't really matter, but she ask for at least to see what she could do for my sister, at least to help her in the depression because it was bringing her down her health a lot. SO mom brought Jess down to see this lady. She is very nice, always smiling and speaking french really slowly.

Shes a Naturapath ( actually shes a bit different she's like a masonaturopath she doesn't ask to take medecine or herbs like the 'real' Naturopath ask you to take)

With the help of just her hand and knowledge she explain that there is a set over energy link every where in your body ( the Chakra? yeah that) and the allergies or anything that block you is because there is a not or a block in the path of your energy and what she do is unblock those energy. There is 12 ( I think) first treatment of the basic element of food, material and metals. After you do the treatment, depending of your age ( like kid, teen, adult) you have to stay away from the type of food your being treated with, like example when I took the treatment for metals, the last one of the basic I only needed to wait 12 hours to stay way from anything metal, buttons, doorknobs and all that. SO I stay in bed since I took the treatment on a Friday night I just had to wait, but I took out a binder that I printed some story out and I touch the rings and I could feel cold stream running down my arm that I touch the metal with and it was freaky, I could feel my arm getting heavy so I just quickly did my points ( rubbing in circle part of your body where the energy link intersect the most, it unblocks the path and let the good energy flow)

Well that lady, that wonderful lady made her clientele with just us. She is so close to us now that if we needed a emergency treatment ( happen once or twice) She actually open her doors to us ( we do pay her anyway even if she refuse so) My Sister was her first real client and if she wanted to test something new, its us she call first because she know how much in bet we are to her.

My sister, Jess, the kid who was forever allergic to food colorant, ate her first sugar full candy 5 years ago...and got sugar high and decided to clean the whole house in her under pent. It was something.

She eat fish where before just the smell made her hand swollen up red. She ate chocolate where the only thing she knew was people telling her about how good it is. She can travel!

last year, or the year before, was the first time, I saw her without the allergic bracelet she had on her wrist for years.

My cousin who couldn't hear from his left ear was able to hear whisperer only after the third treatment ( he has it fully recovered now) They try to see if we could recover my vision also, because my eyes never develop to see perspective, but I polity refused after the first treatment, I didn't like it and I've been this way for so long I didn't want to be all clumsy with a new vision ( like getting new glasses, but wurst.)

My little cousin, who was always hyper in school, playing and had to take those pills for kid to slow them down, after a few treatment my aunt throw those things away. Not everything can be cured by pills or surgery. You just have to know what is causing those effect and if they are all natural, hey its just a block somewhere in your body and you can get it fix.

My dad called her the Witch as in the good way ( one because he cant never remember her name), because she cured my sister when no one else could and or give up on her case.

Nathuropath, check it, cured my mom arthritis.

Steph~

A-to-Z Blog Challenge - Read

Yeah, come on. Who doesn't like to read a good flipping book now a days right? right?

But I gonna tell you a little secret.

I hated reading when I was a kid. HATE IT! Loved making up stories as I play outside, but staying inside and read? ho hell no. I think I was what 9? 10? when I actually read a full book ( Harry Potter FTW) It took me a whole year to read it, and I find it HILARIOUS that I finished it, on the waiting room of my Optometrist.
It was the first time in ever that I didn't need medication in my eyes, and I was damn. She ask me what I've been doing and when I said I just finish reading a book, she said that reading actually help healing my eyes to be better. So I read, A LOT!

I think, going back that I didn't reading for the fact that I couldn't grasp as quickly like the others. I read like a paragraph or a page a night and I had to read it once or twice before it registered in my mind what the hell I was reading. My comprehension was like... Zero percent. ( 1 reason why I failed a lot of my class. Or well close to failed.) It took bit by bit, before I am at the speed I am now. But men I can still remember the day where It took me months to read a simple 200 page paper back, now give it to me for the afternoon I'll tell you the damn story XD

JK Rowling books change my life completely. Not only did she give a GREAT story for the kids, she help me straight my eyes and build my comprehension skills. Give me a love that I would never have know ( or would but much, much later)

I read now to get away from real life and be another person, I read to get away from my life... What? It helps with my Anxiety attacks! When I stop think about my problems long enough I can calm my mind down to stop the damn Anxiety attacks long enough to do my job.

Kids now a days don't read as much, or if they do its just... arg books that they don't need right now. Where are the great book gone to? Harry Potter, Amos Daragon? Lord of the Ring ( Actually never read it XD ) Where are the great adventure, with actual MEANING in it, instead of like, there this bad girl in class, she is mean to me, here is my revenge VOILA I am now popular girl in school woopy-doo.

There is still good books out there, but I've notice on how the emo ones are taking most of the shelves, thats not something to boost the moral of kids or teens, they need more powerful characters where they fight and grow. Because if they don't have any characters that grow whit them, they wont change or heal like I did.

That's why I'm writing. I'm writing stories where my characters grow and learn just like the teen or kid will.

Steph

(damn count = 3... well damn... HA)

A-to-Z blog Challenge - Pink Table

By now you probably have a grasp of what the hell is the Pink Table. If you do please tell me yeah? Cause I have no idea. Its just a reason to show on how weird I am. Cause I don't like pink and that one is like NEON PINK!

James said it represent my soul, I did snort and say my soul is neon green not pink. He just shrug with a knowing smile.

Anyway, I know that most important meetings are made around that table. The Table is a round shape and big, like the round table from Arthur knights ( "Les chevaliers de la table ronde")  It morph into an oval shape when its in The House mansion form, but when its in The House beat up like hell form its a round shape.

I had a lot of meeting around that Table to get my emotion shit together. The best way was to confront why I had those feelings and how better to meet your subconscious himself to help me out? My muse was James for a part of my life but then he became just a character part of me, my muse was a male for as long as I can remember until January 2012 where I notice I've been calling my muse a her. I frig my mind SO much XD ( see Report 99 )

So yeah I feel like every time I sit around that stupid pink table I am planning on how to win a war or something because, before when I was a kid, it was just me Genito and James. Now its like a SERIES of character that I made up from my emotions that are here to help me out in the right path. I have Lavender and Zerox( pronounce like the paper company what is it Xerox? yeah pronounce like that XD) I have Daniel, Yuki, and someone that look exactly like me when I was 16 which creeps me out. ( She is the representative of my childhood memories. That's what he said.)

The pink table is not there to eat lunch on it, its there to have meetings and plan strategies to win the most raging war of all time. Fucking emotions. The Table is where all my character can connect with me and tell me whats on their mind ( one actually insulted me, I treatned to erased him, he said I couldn't even if I wanted to and he was bluntly right that basted. SO I decied to kill him off in every story he could be fit :D)

And this, lady and gentelment was about the Pink Table of doom. Take care :D

Steph~

A-to-Z blog Challenge - Names

okay yes, name, character names. I am obsess by using the same names over and over again. Mostly male names they all are like: Ken, James, William, Alexander.

I like old fashion names. HO men The first time I though of the name Todd for a character I just froze and was like... This is a geek name LETS MAKE HIM A SUPER GENIUS AWARD SUPER VILLAIN with SUPER POWERS, and other villain and heroes make fun of him cause his name is Todd. Its like... really your creating this super villain plan to take over the Super Hero facility but your name is Todd? What kind of super villain name is Todd? maybe like Jack or even like Erik but Todd? naaahhh

I also when I was like 11 all my name started by M. ALL OF THEM even the one I was making up.
Mandie, Melody, Madeline, Mikoto, Mei, Maya and all that It was wurst that I keep using the name WIlliam as my male main character for all my story, I'm getting better though I learn that I can't use it or else my readers will get confuse, so during one summer when I was working at my Government job, n my down time I pull out a baby name website and wrote down all the names (Female, male and unisex) that I liked. Some other names on a post it came from actually people that when I was working on their paper work.

That's how I got Erin, Holy, Julien, Audrea,Jayson,Marcus,Lauraline, Axel,Jasper, Julius, annabelle. ( Fun fact all those names are characters in my Magician Servant story that I wrote for NaNWriMo 2010)

I have like maybe two post it with list, plus three notecard pin on my vision board version 1. ( I have two XD Second one is smaller with actually vision on it, first one I made it when I was in Highschool and only have notes on Writing, story idea, letter to myself and  word that I had a hard time to remember on how to spell correctly.

I find that names are important for the characters, it show their personality and who they are. Its like something a women told me once, when she gave birth to her daughter she had plan since she knew she was pregnant that if it was a girl she was going to named her Ariel, but when she saw her for the first time she said, no, this is not an Ariel its a Veronique. Seeing her daughter for the first time she saw that the name she pick up since ever wasn't made for the new born, and change it right then to the name that she saw fit. And She said it was funny because Veronique wasn't even on the list of name her and her husband made during the pregnancy but both agree that it was the perfect name.

When you name your character you give birth to them, its a important trait and I alsways make sure to remeber the character with their proper name ( they usually get angry when I get mix up, but when you have to fill up a notebook with just character sheet its get a bit confusing.)

I have one character that I made up on the spot from an avatar I was doing on a cardgame website, the avatar system was broken and I couldn't change the sex to female so I was stuck with this excentric looking punk guy with lavender colored hair all spike up. I just shrug and called him Lavender and never though of it again ( website was full of bug so I didn't even bother to go on it again) BUt got my surprised when the guy Lavender came up in The HOuse, flirthing with tinny fairies and being in trouble and being good friends with Zerox another punk character I created around the same time. I called him Lavender because of his hair, out of no where but when he start to have a live I tried to renamed him but with what ever I was trying I always end up calling him Lavender because that was the only thing I could make him have a mark in my story.

Anyway , what do you think? was there a character you just named for just a filler and when you try to change it couldn't?

Take care!

Steph~

A-to-Z blog Challenge - Kitty Cat

At Cat I talk about why I love cats. This post I want to talk abut all my cat Characters.

First one! Is Sir. William McKitten. He prefer to be called Sir, but most my characters call him Willy ( since it's my sister cat Willy XD)

This is his cat version. I also have a new story where he is, well used to be a cat and get transformed into a boy and try to protect a girl from evil Witches. But he still a cat and I make him have cat instinct, he hiss at bullies, the way he talk and act is different from human.

Like he treated to claw their ears off, he say he smell something and the way he eat is like he its the last time he be eating and doesn't use his hands.

I use this character cat often, like right now Sir William is in my script also, he is the cat owning the craft shop, he is a magical creature, with powerful magic and knowledge.






My other cat character is Lady Pixie, my cat. She is the enemy of Sir. William She is proud and will cheat to win, she doesn't care for other only for herself. I only wrote about her during a outline, she is not in the script, I didn't need her.

I also want to place Minouch, a small agile cat with a long tail.

I had Mashmellow Puffball. A fat fluffy white cat who just like to eat, he is the owner of a flower shop close by,  he likes to gossip to Willy often, Willy just find him embarrassing.

Sir. William come more out in my story then any other cats. I raise that cat since he was a kitten, I know him. He is afraid of other people and only listen to me and my sister. He is mean and sly, He can hunt even when he doesn't have claws in his front paws. BUt he cant attack females its so funny and cute XD

Steph~

A-to-Z blog challenge - James.

I have no idea where to start.

I meet James ( my character)  he was 14, young, long blond hair, was skilled with magic and a bow. he was living in the Mansion with his 13 sisters, protecting the apple fields. He brought me to a wild adventure, he told me about a warrior honor.  I saw so many wonderful place.  I want under the sea with the mermaids, I want in a crater with the colorful fairies, with all the colors of the rainbow. I saw the White village, where everything, threes flowers, the ground was white. The people had all white hair, light color eyes and had a knack of making the best fucking sandwich in the world. Also the most powerful magic users. I climb mountains where I meet a god of the wind, had tea with her as she talk about the future of the world. On how she can see vision and it came true, and she try to whisper it through the wind, hoping a soul will hear and say it to prepare from the in coming catastrophe.

I saved a race of elf from being instinct because of a unfair law down from a greedy king. I ride a dragon over the sea to a floating island. I found a hidden village of magical creature, who like to make pizza. Really good one too. But all that I did with James next to me. I grew with him next to me. When My best friend wasn't he was there, to place me in place, to not crack and hit back the bullies ( unfortunately.)

There is maybe two years in high school, where school work got over my imagination and I lost track, but one nigh I just lost it and went to bed two hours early, close my eyes and let my imagination run, trying to find my inner place to get myself back, to find who I was again and that's when The House came to be. The old beat up one. I got in curious and feared, when I saw the Pink Table I was really unamused. But James was there. Older, wiser and accompanied with new friends that was blurred, that I could remember well or that I wasn't ready to know them yet. But James was there.  Even after two years of me forgotten about them, he was still there for me.

He send me to another small adventure, mostly to remember what I left behind. I meet his Daughter, where I didn't even  knew he had a women. I saw the 13 sister older now, instead of the kids I had fun doing pranks with. They are all grown up, just like I did. I meet Genito partner, I meet new characters like lavender, Daniel.

He brough me back to why I like my stories,but I was still to worried about the red pen going on my pages to actually sit down and write a novel. But he is still there when ever I need it. I love him still dearly, but as a good friend. During that night I promis him, that no matter what I wont forget him ever again, so like what happen in high school will never happen and I will still remember who I am.

Steph

A-to-Z blog challenge - House

The House.

Hooo goody, here is the good stuff.

The House ( with capitals) is a place that I created for when I need to be in my inner self . Its a really tall, old, beat up. Its very dusty and dark, the windows are covered in planks, its like a really abandon house. When I need my time to just... recharge or find a solution to something I go there, the keys is around my neck, I open the door, and  it can ether be in two form.

The first one, is just like the beat up house of two floors, it open and I see the stairs on the left, a corridor on the right, a open door which open to the dining room, where a HUGE PINK ( like a highlighter!) round table. Which I will talk on later about this table, its legendary.

Anyway, if I want some insight I usually end up in this place where I can sit down at the table and wait for my council for the verdict.

the other one, it grow, still two floor, but the first floor is at least two meters high, there is two stairs each side circling around to the second floor, where its rows and rows full of doors, rooms and classes. In the middle of the two stairs is a huge double doors, on the right is a open door way that leads to the dining room again, and the HUGE TABLE is still there, but the difference between those two ( except of the hugeness) the second one is clean, royal, I always feel like I'm important and that I have power.

When I want to have control, or am losing control I go THERE. There, is where all my stories,all my characters ( stuck in one time line) live and work. This is where I wind down and have fun with my friends form a childhood, I grew up with all those stories in my head.  I always kept them in me for so long that now just being able to freely telling them, and not sound like a weirdo ( much) is so...so much fun. I love it. I have a lot of stories, in just one place, one world, its incredible to be able to remember them and try to tell them without, you know, 100k word novel XD Just talking about the characters is so much fun.

anyway, The House, is a great place that I made up for me to organize everything, I see the mansion more lately then the beat up house, but I do have to go to the beat up house at time, just... once every 6 months instead of once every month XD

I'll do some sketch of it, I think I do actually so I will post that up some day, for now, that's what I wanted to say about The House. My inner place

Steph~

A-to-Z blog challenge - Ghosts/Genito

two things in this post also because I CAN'T DECIDED!

Genito first. I have no idea how he came to me. At all. I think I just wanted a character, with the same characteristic of James, but different personality enough to both piss each other off and bring conflict in the world ( cough/ story /cough).

What I know is that he was the gag character, he was there to make the situation hilarious. He made bets and contest during war fights. He had funny remark and odd rumor about a place or people the character where going to go see. I also know that he is older then what he look, because there is reference of him in three world history story I made up.

He was raise by the fire siren, up high in the mountains on an island. There is no other of his species, that that found out anyway, they are still searching, but I know that they must have found something because there is new island that they discovered and that there is another character  ( two actually) of the same species of him in another later undeveloped stories.

just, anyway, when I first made him up he was alone of his kind. The fire siren are women in nightgown, carnivorous, with bright fire hair, and fire rings around there feet and wrists. They are going instinct so, once a year, they force the nearby village to sacrifice a newborn girl to raise as their own, or else, they kill every new born so. They found Genito and brought him with them, when he was old enough to make his choices, he left the island to find his kind. Leading him to trouble.

He is a master in martial arts, and later became a teacher at the mansion orphanage. He can't read or write, but can talk 3 different language, where one is an old language that people though was dead years ago. Only a handful people know that language.

He is rash, he prefer to rush in a fight instead of talking about the best possibility to win a fight. He doesn't think before talking, which lead him to a looot of trouble with James. But both of them are best pals. They would root for each other, James was there when Genito lost his partner ( ho yeah, his gay also HA), and Genito was there for the birth of James only daughter.

HO yes, before I confuse more then necessary, I have those characters, this world since I was like 11, so they all did their time, they grew as I grew, they marry, had kids, I saw their kids age and they "die".

I say "Die" because, there old version have lived their life and gone to another place, but a part of their life stayed with me when ever I need them or they can remind me of their story. Right now Genito is around 26-28, he didn't meet his partner yet. James' daughter is 9 and a very powerful magic user.

Genito is as mischievous then ever, and is wurst now because there are more  mischievous  character to help him bother James until he crack. see post HOUSE later, it will explain. My head is one big puzzle.

Ghosts? I just like ghosts.  I wrote a full novel about ghosts. XD

Take care!

Steph~

REPORT 112

Even with the A-to-Z blog challenge I still have to do my reports. For now everything is going super well. Scrip Frenzy is easier then I though, much easier then NaNoWriMo. I check the Camp NaNo and I will only participate at the August one, since they will be open June and August this year. In June, it be moving around, Scott graduation, We will only know late that month where we be moving out, its so nerving.

Gini Koch Alien new book came out like yesterday, but its my sister who still have my kobo, I lend it to her like that she could read Hunger Game, but now she have the new Ipad ( gen 3) and download the kobo app, I give my account to them temporary, but really if they want to use it I'm fine, just make sure they change the billing and it wont go on my visa I'm A-Okay XD

I had plan, for two weeks, for the Scrip Frenzy to use my teen spy story, but in the end, when working on one of the challenge post, I remembered an old story and now writing that one instead. in just two days before it started I scrap my idea and start fresh, and I already have what? 41 pages in less then 4 days? I guess I choose well. I figure that if my story doesn't have any kind of magic element in it I wouldn't be interest at all. IN the last few days in March I had a hard time making my story work, to make it interesting and long enough for 100 pages.

The way I'm going with this magic story I gonna have more then 100 pages! I didn't even his the second act yet! I know I should be starting the second act by now, it just because there is a lot of short conversation that make it look long.

anway, I will go, there was nothing much to report today, I want to the creative writing shop saturday and I was very impress, I had fun. But except of that, I've been writing and working away!

Take care,

Steph~

A-to-Z blog Challenge - Demon/Dreams

Dreams are huge inspiration for my stories. Half of my stories are part of odd dreams I had. The bamboo one, the majician servant story was another, give me wings, not so hero, my neighbor is a vampire, mission:summer vacation, and more. Daniel story didn't came from a dream, its probably why I had a hard time to for the story in the first place. I think it took 2 years total to form a proper plan , that I like and my character fit.

I dream every single night, I have a small notebook and I try to write all of them, some I leave behind, others I will write more in detail, because they could be important ( not so hero was one, and Give me Wings, was like a movie!)

I also write demon, because in the first ever stories I ever imagine, I had the evil guys being demons. They where like a virus, if they kill a Tyrian ( human in that world) and link their blood to the Tyrian blood, it would transform into a demon. Lot like a vampire but they are more... invulnerable. They killed a lot and it takes a lot to kill them. When I was planning for the calender and came to the letter D the first thing that came in my head was the demons, but after that was dreams, and they are both important to me, one explain my vivide imagination and how I can come up with so many stories in a year, the other is part of my childhood.

I had this story, this world and characters since middle school, I invented them, I play around with them because I was bored during recess and I had fun telling the story to my friends, to pass time and try to not get in trouble with bullies, cause I was one of the weirdos, and was proud of it.

I grew up with those stories in my head, those character shape me for who I am. I pass half my life daydreaming and listen to the voice of my characters, I will never forget them and I hope someday I would write their story that they told me ( all 13 of them XD)

take care!

Steph~

A-to-Z blog challenge Cats

This post is actually different from the one I will do in a few days for "Kitty cats."

I want to talk about how cats is a HUGE part of my inspiration for my stories.

I love cats, I like to watch them play around with agility and learn by the time. I like their piercing eyes and their quick  attention to details.

Cats appear in a lot of my stories, they are often cameos of my cats, well my sister cat.

I can consider as my cat because he would only listen to me or her, because during summer when she was goinjg to work, but the kitten was to young yet she would throw him in my room, protect him from our dog. He is a black, long hair cat. Have piercing yellow eyes and skinning in bones. When he sit, his back arch so up it really looks like a cartoon drawing. It always impress me, and he always look at you as if he is bored or find us stupid. ( I can here him being like " you idiot, what do you think I am?")

His name is Willy.

My cat, that me and my best friend adopted, she had long hair and when standing up she looked like a lion, all powerful, but with a soft heart, a great leader. Her name was Pixie, my best friend, used her as a exercise TV show for her class last year, and there was actually a company that wanted to hire her to make that TV show ( cartoon) come to life, but she refuse, she said she was willing to sell the concept to the guy but he really wanted her to supervise and create the story with them so he said no. You can find some of the characters here, its her DeviantArt account. Now she makes plushies, that's what she love to do.

And now there is Minouch ( realy name Priscilla, but its long. Call her Pri-Pri, cat or Minouch), she is my oldest Sister new cat. She is small in figure, tail twice as long as her body, very swift , have extra thumbs and one claw that is stuck out all the time. She is sharp, hear everything, and a quick learner, she learn how to hunt mouses so fast, my dad is proud. ( Find it funny cause when he was Minouch bringing her third mouse in front of the garage, he look at the fat orange cat, Elvis and ask when he would move his butt XD He counter attack by trying to capture a squirrel, which end up him being stuck in a three and my dad laughing.)

I Have a stories where Willy and Pixie are in there ( Pixie is evil, XD ) I still have to come up with a story about Minouch yet, but she intrigue me so much every time I go down for a visit that I know I will come up with the best story for her.

and thats it for today, I know that I have shedual another post about cats, ( Kitty cats, I know, I know, but it was the first thing that came up in my mnind with the letter K) But on that post I will talk about the stories that my cats had influence on, for now: Take care!

Steph~

A-to-Z blog challenger - Bamboo

Bamboo, odd right?

But it come out in my story often. Well, in one that I really like. It came to me in a dream ( ho how original right?), it was actually me, I was older and asleep, but then I got up sharply after the room shake, I rush out my room ( witch was huge, I felt like I was in a mention, all gold and warm colors) to see smoke coming out of the next room. I felt worried and scared shitless, I rush in the room to see the wall completely blown out and a women, in black armor, on a black smoky horse ( like smoke, really it wasn't tangible.) she was holding a baby in her arm, I scream, the baby cry, the lady laugh and fly away ( no really. Its a dream yeah?)

I rush to the crib and there this, panda plushie toy, look used and floppy. My husband, I guess, rush next to me, and cry
"PANDA" ( I always laugh when I remember that part, its just so...so, unusual.)

and the toy became life. It stood up, look at him, then me, then the wall still smoking. It grew bigger as it move and then gallop in the air after the baby.

Then it god more weird, I cry to my husband ( which I don't really remember the name right now, I think its William but I'm pretty sure its the kid name.) to save our  son, then he look at me ( which I had a hard time cause his his hat was hiding half his face, eyes.) and say
"Get the stake knife"
"No, I told you I wont use them. Its not me!" I cry at him, in distress, he shook his head, took out his lab coat and get out some small bright yellow container.
"Don't do it for me, but for our son." I huff, angry and I took out a stake knife from my belt, there is sparks coming out from it, I hear thunder outside.

The rest is blurry but I know I came out to get my son back and kick some ass.

...

now your probably wondering what the hell does it have to do with bamboo. Well after that dream I continue daydreaming about those characters and my son, control earth, like I control thunder and my husband water. His guardian is a giant panda, but what trigger his power ( like me its the stake knife) is a bamboo stick, thin and light like a pencil, when ever he grab it in his head, he transform into some kind of ninja with bamboo armor.

I have a daughter, she control the wind, and her guardian is a phoenix. I don't know what trigger her powers though, in my head I say she is to young yet to trigger it. It just happen that for self defense, my husband force trigger our son power at young age(which I was very angry about and nearly kill him by throwing my stake knife at him. He didn't budge, witch I was more angry at him.)

anyway, there this WHOLE story about them, mostly my son, and how because of his magic bond he fell in love with a non magic girl, just like my husband happen to me and when our bond got deeper, my magic came out ( by mistake, what ever first object I touch would be the object that would trigger open my magic.)

I could write a lot more about it, I have a short, well two short, about my link and my son link with his girl. I have in my future plan to write about them someday ( after I Have Daniel story done.)  I will write more when the time come from, but for now, that's what I had to say about today's challenge about bamboo.

Its awesome, with lots of Pandas.

love,

Steph~

A-to-Z blog challenge - Amanda

Amanda is not a person, but a character actually!

I chose her to represent the letter A today because of a few things. She wasn't the first character I had invented in my head; she is part of 13 sisters, and the oldest. No I choose her because of her personality that I still admire of her.

She has parts of personality that I give to her that I admired for my oldest sister. She is smart, witty and great leader, she know when to take a joke and when to become serious. She will do everything to protect her sibling, and will listen to them. She have an open mind and heart, she will accept everyone for who they are no matter what.

Amanda, when she pop in my head came (like I said above) with 13 sisters, her being the oldest and wisest. She is part eagle (courage and loyal) she have the long, strong wings and tail in her back. She have long brown hair that match her wings, she is usually wearing a long dress. Her golden eyes are piercing and can see everything.

Sometimes, when I go to my inner place for peace and quiet, it’s never quiet, I go to this really old, beat up, two story high house and she is often there, and I talk to her, to bring my though back in track, to take away the fog in my mind. She never left me; she is still inside me whenever I need her.

I still remember the 13 sisters, but not as much as her, which is a shame since I really liked those characters, they just need more...modification of a sort.

And this, was about Amanda, the loyal eagle. Next up Letter B like bamboo!

Steph~

Report 107 purple crocodile

Not a lot of thing happen this week, but I was able to finish a lot on my revision of my novel. I am impress and totally amaze with how much I manage to do in the last 4 month. I am finally done taring down my book, pointing out what is bad and what is good in it, and now Its soon to be time for me to fix my errors, making sure they are the right one this time.

I think was yesterday I was working on the last assignment ( well one before last) and it was about explaining how things work, like how does the kids, teen started to have powers or started to see ghosts, or how does one souls leave the body and became a ghost or a corrupted one.

I tell ya I had so much fun, I didn't need 4 years in college in science to be able to bullshit my way through this assignment, only grade 9 science did the trick. I was able to make it work with my limit knowledge and made sense notherless. I was able to explain how portals work, how Daniel still half ghost and lives, how teen start to have their powers work it was such a  blast, I was singing along with my music, dancing in place as I wrote.

I never been this happy, well no I did before, but with the stress of winter I lost it, and now its back! :D

I'm also scared, my boss is taking some interview to replace some staff that will be going soon and its scary because she told me, hey I be gone in 4 months. 4 Months! That's a very short time, I can't believe it. And really I think its the longest time I ever work for a company ( minus the government job, I was bored half summer with that one.)

And I know in the previous report I talk about me having some weird dreams, but I don't remember them in the morning witch is odd because I always remember them ( that's when I know that those dreams that I don't remember will come true because It always happen that way during high school times.) but this week I remember two of them! :D

One, I titles it the purple crocodile!  I remember seeing an Angel but it was an old friend I didn't see in ages, he was wearing a organization coat but it was a dark gray instead of black. Anyway someone give him a check of a RIDICULOUS amount of money but he refused, and throw it at me, witch I didn't keep it I give to my boss because, in that time I remember thinking she needed the money more then me, and hell it was a LOT of money.

BUT because it was HUGE amount of money, the gods didn't like it because it was throwing off the balance and they send a monster to repair that ( AKA destroy everything till its back a new)

We all went outside, where the sun finally peek out of the clouds and melt all the snow in one seconds, me and Elise started to point out the rainbows plaster everywhere until Elise cry out and point at the sky where a giant rainbow, very vivid was there but she keep screaming that the purple crocodile was coming and that we where all gonna die. And yeah the rainbow transform into a purple crocodile and I remember someone saying that to save everyone we needed to climb something that was higher then the crocodile and lfip the switch, to turn off the fire.

So I took the opportunity and climb rows of desk with keyboards and mouses on them, I remember being mad at the Angel cause he could just help me fly up but he disappear to be only there at the last desk, helping me up.

I did flip the switch off, but after that I woke up.

Another one was basically a version of beauty and the beast in a giant gray castle that feel like a maze at night with only the moon as light, it was creepy, very creepy.

In another note, I discover that we can get a book form of our blog and in august, to celebrate my 3 year anniversary with this blog I want to make a copy of it. Probably gonna cost me 60$ but it will have more then a 100 pages. ( just with my 106 reports it end up with 124 pages so I can imagine around 150-160 by the end of august. Maybe more really.)

I'm also soon being done reading the last book of the Hunger game trilogy. The last book isn't as interesting as the first one, and its dragging, but I'm starting to get a new pace in it so I will be able to finish it soon ish. I'm focusing more on writing my novel then reading right now so.

Anyway that is all for this week report, take care!

Steph~