Report 136: On the island.

(picture not mine, I googled it. Confederation Bridge)

We've been living on the island for more then six months now, and I finally place paintings up on the wall! Well two. ANd I laugh since the two I placed first are made by my best friend that she give me when she moved out of the apartment few years ago. I also cleaned up my office, I changed a few things around so now I can actually close the door of my wardrobe.

I've been writing lately, but not on what I should be actually working on, oups. I wrote the full outline for the second book of my Ghost Trackers series. Then I worked a bit on the first novel, but I should do more then that. I just been...focused on something else, mostly homework since mid term have passed and now I need to study for exam that will be coming quicker then I though.

I did apply for some jobs on the island, since me and scott talked and we agreed that we want to stay for another year. We love our apartment and the island, we don't want to move out. Yes it would be easier on us if we would stay in New Brunswick, but it is our decision and we love living here.

Scott is working his way to try and get an assistant manager job where he is working. NO one really believes him when he asked because he only been working for them for a couple of months, but he is dedicated and works hard.  I'm also going to have an interview ( via SKYPE! :D) next week. Totally sure it was today but then I check the email again and it was March 7 so I was like: Daannmm.

Nothing much happen in the month, except for the "reading week" which is their version of March break. I had plan to read all my books but instead I just...tumblr all day and clean the apartment. Fun times. Okay yes I got skype finally when I was talking with my best friend where I missed the sowing machine loud noise. She said "why not?" and it made me download skype but I didn't even call her yet, I got a call from my mom and now they are calling at least once a week or every two weeks or so.

its awkward, because I have no idea what I can talk to them. I just find it funny because every time they call scott is working at nights so they miss him. And I mean, there is so much I can talk about two classes. I could talk about my progress in my writing but the only thing that interest them is if my grammar is perfect, not the story ( which is depressing, so I keep it to myself).

For valentines day, Scott changed the plan at the last minute, we had previously planned that I would have cooked him a dinner at home while he worked until 5, but then he wanted to go out. And I was like, your kidding me! Its Valentines Day! so yeah, we got no place at all, even if I tried to call in advance for reservation, but not only was it Valentines day, but it was Kids eat free day ish. NO PLACE AT ALL. We ate at McDonalds. I got books, I let him get a DLC for Skyrim.

I FINALLY GOT A BOOK BY JOHN GREEN! I got Paper Town. I still didn't read it since I'm half way into Cinder like a week ago. And I still have a bunch of books I want to read that are all placed accordingly on my desk.Its quite pretty.

Anyway I have to go, one assignment needs to be written and a outlines has to be planned.

Take care,

Steph~

Report 134 - Christmas Tree

 A few weeks ago, my mother told me that my sister and her friends where doing a contest of whom has the best looking Christmas tree. It just happened that I bought a christmas tree from Zellers on sale ( since the store is closing). Half the light is working, I barely have any decoration at all, and am forbidden to buy any. SO I told myself: I'm a crafter, I have a lot of things at home that I can use as decoration for my christmas tree, and scott does not want to be part of it – it is all my idea – so I told my mom that hey I will participated too!

Therefor, a few day after, taking a break from studying. I sat down in the middle of my office with those:

I already have a box full of small decoration (top left corner) from my grandmother a few years ago and my sister, as gifts. When I used to work at Staples in Miramichi, after the holidays my boss was getting rid of the window decoration she got for the store, it just happened that I go my hands on them.

SO I have: small decoration, a laminator, window snow-flake decoration, tape, paper clip, scissors, single hole puncher, and construction paper.

I did not have a clear idea of what I wanted to do for my christmas tree. No okay, I had no idea in the first place, I just took out what I could used and went with it. So the first thing I did was laminated the window decoration like that they are more stable.

Then I cut them up and place a single whole on the top, and with the paper clips I improvised.

I end up with a lot more then expected so I was happy. Today I finish off the top decoration: a star, like always, and took a picture of the end product. It is ugly. But it is okay, because I made it. I made it with my own hand and that's what I like. Good thing out of that ugly thing is that there won't be any glitter on the floor! So there it is, my Christmas tree. Under the tree there is the fake snow with the village, and my family's gifts.

I also finished my first semester of University! I loved it. I still didn't receive my final grade but I am confident that I did well, against everyones believed. Scott and I love living on the island, we've been slowly saving up and taking care of the car ( new battery!). Scott is working away, while still looking for a better paying job, but it is hard to find, but he still apply to some. I went and saw a career counsellor, like I was asked, and I feel bad for the poor women since I was just there bawling crying because I have no idea what I want to do anymore, since everyone I tell are just saying it is not good enough and should do better. Or that I will fail because I suck. Thanks guys, my depression is just in need of more wood for the fire!

I compiled a mind map, the day after the meeting with the counsellor, of everything I loved working in and what I would love to do in my future. With what I discovered in myself, I changed my course outline for my second semester and chosen the classes I want to take in the summer to see if I really want to go in that path.

I know I ask for material thing for christmas, but what I really want to have when I go down, is conversation that is not about my future jobs, my inability to make a decision with only TWO class under my belt.I want to talk about the news, weather, my new friends, Scott's friends, my future classes, books, movies, my writing, cooking, funny stories, how everyone is, new projects, how Scott's family is, plans for the summer, camping. Anything else that will bring the joy in our stay.

That is all I'm asking. You can all send me a rent of text in a email or text the day after we leave, but not before. Because I will pack and leave.  I love you all deeply, but there is so much kick in the guts feeling I can take in a month.

Thank you,

Steph

Report 125 terrified

In a week, we be moving to PEI and I am absolutely terrified.

IN a week, I"m packing all my shit up and move in another PROVINCE! I wouldn't be as scared if I still be in NB but we decided to move in PEI. I have no regret, I love the island, everyone I talk to and say I be moving there say that I will love, I will enjoy it. Everyone that once lived there say they absolutely adore it.

I think the reason that I am freaking out inside the most is that I was giving all my hopes on Scott having a good job over there but we still didn't hear anything form the company over there when he send his application. Today is the Jalloo festival ( a two day convention where people from the gaming and animation industry comes down and give workshops, plus a time for industries looking for hiring can look through the graduates portfolio.) and there is a few people from PEI that came down. So we have a chance there for Scott to talk and get probably a job, so its good.

I'm freaking out because we don't have friends over there, it will be 4 hours of drive to visit my parents, 6 hours to visit his, around 2 hours to visit my best friend.

I'm freaking out because I only have enough hours at work to pay my half of the rent and food, nothing else and I'm going to University this coming fall. My laptop is dying, I'm giving it him 3-4 months max, its overheating to much and getting to slow no matter how much I'm cleaning it, its to old and probably melting all the parts on the motherboard by now.

I want to get a Mac, but its around 1900$ and that's basically my car assurance right there. I wonder if the school would buy it for me because I need it for my classes. I kinda can bring my big ass tower to school really. I was planning on using my laptop ( and a voice recorder) to take notes for my courses but with the Mac laptop I can just have the app Keynote ( I think that's the one) and I can both recorder the lecture AND take notes. Its awesome.

...Okay I got distract from the apple website, I was looking at the difference with the air and pro mac, because I didn't remember why I went with the mac pro. Then I notice they don't have a 15inch in the mac air so that answer my question. I want to see things, I like the 15inch screen its comfortable for me. And it doesn't have a CD drive, well that settles it!

There is a lot that scares me but in the same time I'm excited, its a new place a new beginning, a new path being fallowed, and I'm doing it with someone I love, in a place we both really, really like. We will make new friends, and there is a lot to see and do over there, so many events! A new place for a new life, doing something that I love to do. Its going to be so fun.


Its going to be quite something.

Steph~