Report 73, the faitfull Ghostly day.

There is a lot I want to report and in the same time nothing. It's really funny.Well then first thing first; I will be graduation in two weeks or so less. I have my website done, only need a video of my practicum game I made, I can't link the game itself since that game is a facebook game :D We be placing it in public by the end of this month, its our goal, so I hope you guys could just check it out and help support me! And send report on how much it sucks and how to improved it XD

Other thing I been watching, well I watch the whole second season of Glee in one week-end, I drove my boyfriend crazy since he doesn't really like does kind of shows. Kids dancing and singing is not his forte, while I LOVE it.And because of glee I bought like I don't know how my CDs I have volume 4,5 and the Warblers plus the new Lady Gaga CD. All that in the same week XD

But that's not all, Glee made my muse click on something and I can't stop writing another story instead of the one I should be working on right now. I don't complain in case that I stop writing that one out of the blue and I will end up with two unfinished novel. (knock on wood). It all started when my roommate was cleaning in her room and starting to pack her stuff to bring down, things that she doesn't want in Federicton, anyway she found lots of pens and paper and just give them to me ( yeey) , one is a fountain pen ( Classic Calligraphy mini) with ink tube that I have to place inside. I only had like 4 colors: green,blue,red and black, yeay well it all gone now. I wanted to test the pen so I place the green ink in and took out some of my white sheet of paper and just randomly start writing.

And I just end up loving the character, I can hear him live and breath next to me while he rant about his story and I just could stop writing. I have now in total 20 white page fill up and two tube of ink drain up. I was out of white paper so I bought a sketch pad, the same size of the white print paper and continue. so in total I have right now 30 page written and it is incredible I can't stop writing I love it I even write when I'm supposed to be working on the game at school.

I'm pretty sure if you go down down in some of my report you heard of my characters, its Daniel and co. I was always confuse of what his story was and when even I ask he always give me mix answer that just didn't link up together or make any sense at all. Well I was asking the wrong question all that time cause when I was testing the pen and looking at the blank page in front of me, the only though that was in my head was what should I write?And Daniel just pop in my head and said "ME, ME I'm flamboyant you love me" So I just shrug and start writing his story as he told me. Bearly any description around yet I feel like I knew what it was going on. I don't need to describe what a school looks like or feel much since every one whent in a school some point in there life, why over describe it? Isn't part of the writer to let the reader imagine it like they want? I just want to to present the reader about my characters and there story, their life.

And now I just lost my train of though...goody.Well...I have a math exam comming up? I didn't even do any homework and miss half the class all the time because well I'm sick. When I get super nervous and stress I get sick and I can't concentrate much so I just give my teacher the question he give us and leave class because I don't want to throw up in there thank you very much.This week was wurst, I started a cold and I didn't have medication ( all expired since 2009?! wtf) so I was really bad by friday so I just staid home and read a whole book ( Hex Hall by Rachel Hawkins, really good love her style would recommended)

And now I feel better, I bought new medication and well I guess its a none drawnzy one cause I didn't get a blink of sleep all night. I had to move to sleep on the sofa in the living room because I kept waking up the boyfriend and he had to get up at 5 in the morning, and I also kept coughing so it was better that way.

So well now I guess I will go back to writing in the sketchbook with the Hi-jell sparklers pen I got for free from my roommate XD

take care,

Steph~

report 72. Pirates!

I had a odd dream:
I was a pirate with my boyfriend and friends, some other crew I didn't recognize. I was the leader, and Scott was the one gearing our money. Don't know who was the navigator I didn't see him but that's not important. We land in a Japanese look like place. It was a small island with houses over houses. It was pack. We enter one and the inside was a grocery store, with cosplayers inside. And it was a convention also!

I send Elise, my friend and another crew to pick some food up cause we need provision, scott said. So I took a cart and we start shopping, me and Scott bickering like usual, then he want to get some pop, just to bring on my nerves, cause I hate when he drink to much pop, and he came with a tall but tin book. It look like fake leather and was wine red. SO I ask where he got that. He said it was a convention in the grocery store and stole it like a good pirate. I pat him but then I notice a white sticker tag on it. Instead of a price, it was a name.

Holly Lisle.
My writing teacher from How to Think Sideways course.

I got surprise and nervous I told a crew member next use to change the ship place cause they be after us.And I turn back to Scott, I told him that we have to give it back.

I had to explain who that person is and in that world Holly was the one guiding us, so we both went to the boots where she was there, waiting for teaching he lesson and selling her books. I explain that we were pirates and sorry that my partner stole her book and give it back.

She was suprise that we use the HTTS to guide us in the sea. After that it was a bit fuzzy we where in a rush because something was after us. I when to get my crew members I found my friend in a isle with bottles of water and we left.

The odd of dreams eh? Writing about it I'm pretty sure I'm sailing in the sea of writing, a pirate because I dare the fail and fight against what everyone say to stop me. And the people that I was running away from I'm pretty sure is the four barriers : VICTIM, PERFECT, SAFE, FEEL.

and Holly is the superior of all Pirate, she's the pirate King! XD
well Pirate Queen.

Its odd because on the last report I just said I was afraid of deep sea, I love pirate but me watching the anime One Piece probably didn't help the vision of me being a pirate. But I wont be able to navigate or lead XD And Scott isn't a writer, he actually laugh at my naming fantasy things from my books. I huff at him and ignore him, but he said my idea he like he just doesn't like the way I called them.

It was Fairys. I'm still not over that.

anwyay to all mothers out there, Happy mothers day!

take care

Steph~

Report 71, Black Water

You all probably heard in your life that if your afraid of something, to not be afraid anymore you have to live it right? Like if your afraid of heights go on top of the tallest building and look down, thing like that. Yeah well it didn't work for me.

I'm afraid of deep water. I can't go under water at all, I know how to swim, my mother made sure I knew how, but I will not go under water. Even there when I take a shower I need a hand tower over my eyes to make sure no water goes on my face, its that bad, if water goes on my face I panic.

My panic attack was going down lately and I didn't need the hand tower anymore ( still had it close in case ). but two days ago, I think my fear just double.

Two days ago I was taking my show, thinking of how I will manage to graduate and stuff when, as I open my eyes, every thing was black. Pitch Black.

I scream and nearly fell of the shower tub. I wrap my towel around me shaking cause I was in shock, my arms and leg was black, and the water was running black. I shit you not. It was a mess, it look like someone decided to dump black paint in our water and it sprinkle EVERY WERE in the bathroom ( mostly because of me really from the way I got out)

I don't have nightmares ( thank god) but I can't sleep well because of fear that black water will just run everywhere in my room. The water is still black, but only a tint of it like gray black and still leaving residue behind ( black send, I wonder how many time I said the word black in this report right now). My roommate is going to go see the landlords tonight, I can't since I have a night class but she have pictures of the mess after I manage to get out and videos of the black water running.

And really I don't think I can take a shower normally for quite a while now. Its the second time it happen to me where the water change color in the middle. The first time I was mostly mad because it was only brown water and it happen often in spring time, so I knew what was happening( and my hair was still full of shampoo so I had to figure a way to wash it off before getting out XD was quite an adventure.)

But yeah, my boyfriend came after the mess since I send him a text to come over ASAP having a panic attack, he had fun washing the black streaks off my back.He is nice enough to ask me every morning if I'm okay.

So yeah, now my fear of water got wurst. On other more happier note ( ha!) I'm 1 credit away from graduating! :D I failed one of my class and since I had drop out of another I was missing 5-4 points, but I was able to take a math class to give me 3 more credit ( I think) and since we notice that the mobile class, the class I drop out, was still at incomplete level, I was able to get those credit too if I send in all the missing home work and still have to take the "project" to get my grade up from my failed class to get those missing credit.

Soo In three days I finish my mobile class, tomorrow I will know what is the project I need to do to get a passing grade and tonight Math class which is a night class ...yeey Thank god our teacher was able to get a match class this term or else I wouldn't be able to graduate at all.

And in all that I want to write my book. This term I have Math class, portfolio and Practicum class. Its not bad, just that I don't have a lot to show off in my portfolio so I need to work hard in my Practicum to get things to show off... Kinda funny that most of my games will be flash games XD I'm working on my Run Dino Run game right now. I will post them here when I figure how too XD

For the writing part, I'm done plotting I just have to get myself to sit and start to write.My characters are getting mad at me for not starting to write. I have a long week-end ahead of me so I probably will start then. I'm going down to see my family and this time boyfriend is coming down too! It been a while that they didn't see him and everyone keep asking where he is XD They like him better haha.

I had plan to start writing tonight, if everything goes fine with the landlords or that we don't have to much work from math class.Probably not so yeah I will start writing tomorrow. I wont keep track here anymore I like it but it was time I spend surfing then I should be writing. Also I start reading this series ( lol start I finish that long time ago) by Gini Koch. It's awesome I love it. The first book of the "Alien" series is called, "touched by an Alien" I have them all in eBook format but I bought the paper back anyway like that I can study it. I love the way Gini write, you really feel the characters bone and flesh in front of your. You are Kitty Katt ( not a stripper) and going trough all her drama killing alien and falling in love. At first glance it feel like there is nothing that moves, only information throwing at you and its boring but the way she made it that Kitty tries to understand and see the plot wholes and fixing it you get surprise yourself.

But above all, its HILARIOUS.The characters are believable, the writing style is fun and easy to understand I would recommend it tenfold. I read her three books ( all around 400 pages) in less then 3 days, and I'm starting it over again.First time for the plot, second time for detail, third time as a writer XD

I think that's all for me, failed one class, need to catchup, black water, awesome books,black water, me writing, black water, got new professional clothing, black water,Math class, practicum, games... yeah sounds good, well then.

Take care every one! I leave you with a super long report haha

Steph~